Doing things we dont want to do...

there are things in this life we will have to do no matter how much we dont want to do them.

i am too lonely and keep allowing things, people...even myself to continually hurt me. and I really cant do it anymore.

I have to start choosing better for myself. and i am, another new begining.

i dont like goodbyes, i tend to hold on long after they have been said.
i dont like people bouncing in and out of my life like they arent going to alter me in any way by doing so.
i dont like being lonely.
i dont like it when people dont keep their promises.

but when i remember how hard it is to change myself, i understand that i cant change others, although, i continually hope that change will come.

I am a hopeful lover.
I am a hopeful person.

dont lead me along...knowing you wont keep your promises.
i easily believe people, i easily see the good in you...dont take that for granted. take advantage of my kindness...

now i must learn to let things, people, situations go so i can heal, be happy and whole. i have to face what pain i know will come, and i must not falter, i have been hurt in my past, so i know i can do this...