Lonely

I can barely bring myself to smile these days.
When I go to bed the emotions flow,
I am lonely.

No, not just your regular "oh man, today was off, tomorrow it will be better".
Im talking the one that grabs your heart,
and echos the pains through your chest.

This is the meaning of being lonely.

Lonely despite the billions of people in the world.
Lonely despite being constantly surrounded by friends or family.

I miss the better days.
I miss the people I was close to.

I wish I had someone to hug me and hold me tightly so I dont fall into the million peices I am tempted to...

I just want someone to care.

But I will never say it. I will never admit it.